Y'all... When I say I get overstimulated, I'm not kidding. I have one kid screaming "Mama" repeatedly and one kid screaming jargon. I'm convinced I am going to have to change my name from mama to something else at this point.
I am not a mom who likes to be too hot. When I say that, I'm like I need the AC, the fans, the ice packs- all of it. When I'm hot as hell and the kid's are climbing all over me, I get instantly over stimulated. I know that one day I'm going to miss that, all of that. So I sit and cringe a little because it's hot as hell, the kid's are climbing on me, and I am sweating bullets at this point.
I am a mom who tries my absolute best to listen to 50 conversations at once, watch the kid's play, catch them before they fall down, and whatever the hell else happens in a short amount of time. Then I miss part of conversations. I have someone asking "Did you hear me?" Like no, no, I didn't.
Sometimes I literally have to walk away from everything that is going on to take a second to breathe, recollect, and remember what the hell was going on. Also, the power of just breathing for a second. Let me tell you!
Feeling all of your feelings is good, it's healthy. Having a moment to process and realize that you're overstimulated his healthy. It's a hell of a lot healthier than losing your shit, that's for sure.
There is not a day, not a hour, not a minute, or a second that goes by that I'm not so damn lucky to have what I have. To think that being over stimulated and getting angry/upset or even just overly quiet even for a moment could be a core memory in someon'e life. That could be a defining moment on how my child or someone I love and care about reacts to me getting overstimulated. I could easily just take a breath and be okay. I know that is so much easier said than done. It's a constant trial and error of what works when you are over stimulated It is a constant push and pull.
I realized that just taking a breath is so much easier than losing my shit. Realizing that my kid's are kid's, they don't understand. That people cannot read my mind on how I am feeling. So how are they supposed to know if I feel overstimulated or not? This life is full of trials and errors. It is full of mistakes, asking for forgiveness, and being better. So if you see a mama that has a kid pulling at her leg, one kid running away, someone trying to talk to them on the phone, and someone trying to talk to them in person and she is trying to balance it all- I promise you, from one overstimulated mom, grace goes a long damn way.
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